I Am In Shock - What Now?
Though healing has long since taken place from that cold October day when I first found out about betrayal in my marriage, in looking back, the startling vacillation of emotions depicted within one journal entry never cease to amaze me. What a variety of responses: shock, disbelief, anger, bitter disappointment, sorrow, grief, self-pity, and even empathy. Depression followed to the point of craving death, with brief moments of strength and weakness sprinkled throughout. Tough questions rocked the foundation of my Christian faith.
I wish I could share a shortcut through this valley of pain, but I cannot. For a season nothing felt normal. Many times I felt near to an emotional breakdown. I could not sleep. I could not eat. I faded in and out of denial. Shock ruled. You may feel the same.
One of the first steps through the shock, was to face the truth that assaulted my fairy tale dreams of happily-ever-after. My husband loved me far too much to cheat, and furthermore, I was a great wife...wasn't I?
As I slugged my way through the messy, I slowly came to grips with the truth...life was less than idealistic, those who loved you could fail miserably and fairytale endings sometimes had dark detours.
However, an amazing truth stepped out of the world of Christian cliché. God’s promise to never leave or forsake became reality. When I cried out to God in my saddest and weakest moments, He was, there. I found His kind, calming presence over and over. I no longer speak these words tritely, but believe them with all my heart. He will do the same for you.
Don't be afraid to cry, scream, shout—God hears. You are not alone. This is all part of coming to terms with your reality. The first step in healing has begun when truth is faced head on.
AND...YES IT HURTS...A LOT!
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About the author
Blossom Turner is an award-winning novelist, and a free-lance writer published in Chicken Soup and Kernels of Hope anthologies, and former newspaper columnist on health and fitness. A Word Guild semi-finalist for Anna's Secret, Katherine's Arrangement, Amelia’s Heartsong, and a Word Guild winner for Best Romance for Lucinda’s Defender. She has found her home in the writing of historical fiction but is open to wherever God leads. The many 5-star reviews attest to the power of love and romance authentically woven into the Shenandoah Bride Series about five sisters and their five love stories.
Blossom lives in British Columbia, Canada, with her husband, David, of forty years and their dog Lacey named after Lacey Spring, Virginia, where this series takes place. A former businesswoman, personal trainer, and mother of two grown children she is now pursuing her lifelong dream of writing full-time. A hopeless romantic at heart, she believes all story should give the reader significant entertainment value. However, her writing embodies the struggles of real life. She infuses the reality of suffering with the hope of Christ to give a healthy dose of relatable encouragement to her reader. Her desire is to leave the reader with a yearning to live for Christ on a deeper level, or at the very least, create a hunger to seek for more.
Co-author Suzie Zanewhich
Suzie is a certified life coach, leader of emotional health, and resource specialist. She has found her niche as a soul coach.
Suzie finds purpose in empowering individuals to move towards growth, healing, and alignment with their authentic self. Suzie is driven by a calling to live authentically, as the person God created her to be, to reach her fullest potential and lead others to do the same. Her passion is to help others find meaning through discovering their strengths, gifts, personality, temperament and core values.
Suzie is a life-long learner, continuously immersing herself in new courses to learn more about human behaviour, relationships, psychology, child development, emotions, trauma and healing. Because of her craving to always learn more she has earned the title of resource specialist in the area of self-discovery.
Suzie Zanewich lives with her husband in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada. She has a patchwork family of four grown children, two daughters, two sons and three granddaughters.
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