What Is Love?
Two months after the truth of betrayal in my marriage,
I wrote these words in my journal.
January 20, 2007Do I love him?
I can’t lie to myself. How can I say I love David when loving a husband means I respect him, I’m proud of him, I want to protect his name, I trust him… and not one of these qualities are present?
There is a conflict that rages within…One of years together, good memories, raising two beautiful children, of happy times and laughter…then the other, his betrayal…and betrayal is not a strong enough word to convey the agony. My current situation creates a jaded view and those things that were previously difficult in our marriage are now magnified.
So I ask myself, do I love him?
Confusion is my only answer.
David says I look at him with sadness, blankness, or anger. He says I never smile anymore.
It’s true and I can’t help it, nor do I have the energy to care most days.
This account depicts the intense sorrow of betrayal and the aftermath of broken vows. My idealistic view on love had been shattered, and needed redefinition.
Did I love David? Yes. The very fact I did not immediately walk out the door answered that question.
Did I love what he did to us? Absolutely NOT! It was the most difficult season I have ever walked through. Our marriage is intact because of the grace of God.
In Wednesday’s Blog I will expound upon what love is?
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About the author
Blossom Turner is an award-winning novelist, and a free-lance writer published in Chicken Soup and Kernels of Hope anthologies, and former newspaper columnist on health and fitness. A Word Guild semi-finalist for Anna's Secret, Katherine's Arrangement, Amelia’s Heartsong, and a Word Guild winner for Best Romance for Lucinda’s Defender. She has found her home in the writing of historical fiction but is open to wherever God leads. The many 5-star reviews attest to the power of love and romance authentically woven into the Shenandoah Bride Series about five sisters and their five love stories.
Blossom lives in British Columbia, Canada, with her husband, David, of forty years and their dog Lacey named after Lacey Spring, Virginia, where this series takes place. A former businesswoman, personal trainer, and mother of two grown children she is now pursuing her lifelong dream of writing full-time. A hopeless romantic at heart, she believes all story should give the reader significant entertainment value. However, her writing embodies the struggles of real life. She infuses the reality of suffering with the hope of Christ to give a healthy dose of relatable encouragement to her reader. Her desire is to leave the reader with a yearning to live for Christ on a deeper level, or at the very least, create a hunger to seek for more.
Co-author Suzie Zanewhich
Suzie is a certified life coach, leader of emotional health, and resource specialist. She has found her niche as a soul coach.
Suzie finds purpose in empowering individuals to move towards growth, healing, and alignment with their authentic self. Suzie is driven by a calling to live authentically, as the person God created her to be, to reach her fullest potential and lead others to do the same. Her passion is to help others find meaning through discovering their strengths, gifts, personality, temperament and core values.
Suzie is a life-long learner, continuously immersing herself in new courses to learn more about human behaviour, relationships, psychology, child development, emotions, trauma and healing. Because of her craving to always learn more she has earned the title of resource specialist in the area of self-discovery.
Suzie Zanewich lives with her husband in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada. She has a patchwork family of four grown children, two daughters, two sons and three granddaughters.
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